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Name: Emily
Country: United States
State: Virginia
Metro: Prince Williams County
Birthday: 2/8/1991
Gender: Female
Interests: life and everything that goes with it
Expertise: changing my mind,doodleing, plotting your demise.and dressing up --- as u can see im very accomplished
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  graypea
Member Since:
11/4/2004
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| It's upsetting how ignorant you can be even when you're in the middle of it- my last blog showed that completely- it was honest- and i think its in private- but- i was so confused- i just sound stupid-and hateful- and SO selfish.I used to cross out entries in my diary when i looked back on it- because- nobody likes the honest them- esspecially when the honest them is only writting because their upset and dont know what theyre talking about- The worst time to be completely clouded has to be when youre in the middle of it- but its the only time i ever decide to say anything- is when im upset and have no idea .
it's been almost a year since i wrote in here- and i kind of hate the stupid bitch i had turned into - i was just a stupid- confused teenager- and i hate to think that about myself- but i realized like yesterday- i feel like theres this big gap between me and early tenth grade- although i know events- like i wrote a narrative thing- like a thought flow for creative writting- and it was about all the specific fun things- i did with him - and his friends- they're all such great people- i was so dumb- jsut stupid- im thinking about the good times from this year- and i liked who i was there- i feel like Ive found something better- and as much as i never like to admit it- Andrew was right. And i feel like now- after all this shit- i can be myself- or im closer to beign who i want to be- but without the stupidity-like i was before- but without that secret ignorance-i can actually respect myself more. Even though i was bitter- a year ago- I'm so glad to have him as my bestfriend- we aren't dating anymore- but i can honestly- and proudly say he has made the largest contribution- to who i am- for the better- as a person
which whatever happens to us in the future- lose touch- or not, I will always be thankful for-
i know that sounds like a prayer or something- but - its what it is- and- im going to leave and reminisce now.
light and love,
-Emily
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| ...i think what was previously here, was also kinda lame.
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| everything sucked- and now most of it is finally over :)
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| i turned 16 on thursday- andrew and his dad took me out to dinner las t night- and it was really nice. lol- i had a lot of fun- he's really great. lol - i'm totally a little sap- well whatever- i got an eisle for my birthday and i sset it up in my room today and started painting- i'm grounded for failing a midterm- so i cant hang out with anyone during the week, which sucks- so even if we do get a snowday- i'm goign to be SO bored.Emmy's dating Ricky now, finally. lol - she's too smart for him and she knows it- but i think it's good that's shes fianlly in a real(could be healthy-lol) relationship. i'm happy for her-"ice and freezing rain! but will it close local school?!" yes.. yes it will- because in princewilliam county- we get out of shcool for cold days.
love,
-emily
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| Alright, so my own blog depressed me- the job at whimsical gallerie fell through, becaus of age- liek i thought- and so im not goign to try and get another one until i turn sixteen in - 14! DAYS!so two weeks, and i have all this creative writting to do before i go to andrew's tomarro-w so i should reallly stop procrastinating. I think im losing whatever was unique about me- or its jsut changing to something different- its jsut sad watching it go- i wonder if butterflies and moths miss their cocoons.
love,
-Emily
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